Waiting To Exhale

Me: Guess what?

You: Chicken butt.

Me: No, really, guess what?

You: I give up. What?

Me: I haven’t seen my Mr. in almost two months.

You: Holy guacamole! Where’s he been?

Me: Rock n’ rollin’.

You: But I thought you were afraid of being alone at night?

Me: Oh yeah, I’m a panicker for sure. I just sorta took a great big breath when he left, and always made sure the TV was always on Disney or HGTV. (a.k.a. my two favorite channels that don’t ever show scary movie trailers.)

——————————————————————————————————-

He’s coming home today, and I cannot wait to finally e x h a l e………..

(And sleep with the all the lights off again.)

The house he’s coming home to is a little different than the one he left though.

On March 31st I had to say goodbye to our cat, Mr. Bean…

It was absolutely heartwrenching.

The two of us had spent a lot of time going back and forth to the vet during March. He stopped eating, and he was dropping weight like crazy. The first time around, they pulled one of his teeth (they said it was infected) and hooked him up to IV to get him rehydrated. The second time around, they hooked him up to another IV, did an ultrasound, and put him on three different medications. The prognosis wasn’t good, but he did show signs of improvement after a few days, so I took him home and watched YouTube videos about how to give cats pills. Three times a day, for the next week, I straddled his bath towel-wrapped body, nervously pryed his jaws apart and forced multi-colored pills inside his (growling) mouth. It was awful. For him, more than me, I’m sure. Eventually, I got him to eat a teeny tiny bit of soft cat food, but just when I thought he might be getting better, he took a major turn for the worse.

He was a shell of a cat the day I called his Dr. with what turned out to be the final update of his condition.

You’ve done everything you could“, she replied, “It’s time to say goodbye.”

My knees went weak and I felt a huge lump form in my throat. I was afraid to talk because I didn’t want to open the floodgates, but I think she picked up on it because she did most of the talking after that. I listened to her explain the process, and our options, and just tried with all my might not to sob.

The next few days were pretty rough, especially since Kev was gone, but I know Bean was in a lot of pain and I absolutely hated seeing him like that.

He was an amazing and beautiful cat, and we’ll all miss him very much…



…especially the mama that rescued him at a grocery store…13 years ago.


PS- I published this post by Bean not that long ago, and I’ll always smile when I think about all the crazy places he used to sleep.

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Comments

  1. says

    Glad your hubby is coming home! So sorry for your loss. It’s never easy to lose a loved one, even the 4 legged ones, they become just as much a part of our family/lives as the 2 legged ones.

  2. says

    Aww. It’s hard to watch a beloved pet suffer. We lst our bunny rabbit of 6 years last year, about a month before my hubby’s dog of 10 years died. It was horrible.

  3. Sophie says

    I’m so sorry about Bean! Rest in peace, little buddy!
    I know how you feel. We have six cats right now but back in 2009 we lost three of them in one year.
    At least you’ve got your man coming home, though (:

  4. Gloria says

    So sorry for the loss of your kitty. Being a pet owner is tough since we almost always outlive them.

    I hear you on sleeping with lights on and no scary movies. No scary movies is my general policy. They are very unnecessary I think. Happy for you to get your husband back. You are a patient woman. Now turn your phone off and unplug the computer and just be. Together.

  5. says

    I am so sorry about your loss. Our pets become our family members and it is so heartbreaking to have to say good-bye to them, but the will be comfort in remembering the wonderful time you had with him.

  6. Angie B says

    So sorry to hear about your cat, Mr. Bean. They become a part of your family and it is very hard when you have to say goodbye. Ive lost 2 cats in the last 5 years both to renal failure, having to give then dailey fluid IVs and then finally knowing that it was time to say goodbye. Again I am so sorry.

    But happy days, your MR. is coming home!

    Take care.

  7. says

    oh, you’ve got me all blubbery crying over your sweet cat. So sorry!

    Also, TOTALLY with you on the scared at night thing. I watch Disney channel too (get a little Hannah Montana in) but scary commercial free. What’s WITH those commercials?!

    So glad you’re getting your hubs back!! Enjoy the reconnecting!

  8. Kathy says

    So sad to hear about Mr. Bean. My heart goes out to you, Kevin and Max too. Bean looks just like our kitty Spencer, who came to live with us a couple of months after we lost our 20-year old kitty.

  9. says

    I feel like you are my kindred spirit with this post. I do the SAME thing when my hubby aka hunkaroonie is away on business. AND we just (7 months however feels like yesterday) let our beloved doggy go onto doggy heaven. I know what you’re going through and I’m sending you strength.

    So glad your hubby is coming home soon ….

    Hugs friend.

  10. says

    so incredibly sorry for your loss. i have four dogs now. when you lose your pet, it is absolutely heart wrenching to say the least. a member of your family has left you. extra hugs with your man and snuggles to celebrate both his homecoming and your loss together. hugs to both of you!

  11. KFowler says

    My deepest condolences on the loss of your sweet furbaby. Our Malamute Akira is going to be 10 next month, which is pretty old for a large dog. Two years ago, we discovered she had what is apparently the only slow progressing form of lymphoma. Several months after that, she was diagnosed with canine Cushing’s. It’s been up and down with her in the past two years. Some days she’s doing okay, others she seems to be on a downswing. Lately though, she’s taken a major downswing and we’re not sure how much longer she has to go.

    I’m so glad that your hubby will be home soon so that the two of you can lean on each other for support during this sad time. Much hugs to you both.

    Kristin

  12. says

    Amazing how attached we become to our pet children. I was forced to put down my dog after 17 years (got him at 15 as a pup) It was heart wrenching. Glad the hubs will be there soon to give you some much hugging and the ability to sleep in the dark!

  13. says

    oh, I am sooooo sorry, pets are the best little souls out there!!! you were a good mama to him!!!!
    have fun smoochin’ your husband!!!

  14. Jackie says

    Layla & Kevin,
    I’m so sorry to hear about your sweet little Bean. We get so attached to our little furry friends and I know it’s so hard when we have to let them go. There time with us is way to short. He had a great life with you, and I’m sure he appreciated you rescuing him. My heart hurts for you guys…. :(…

  15. says

    I am sooo sorry for your loss. I have two cats and I can’t imagine being without either one. We have had our first cat for 10+ years so I know he won’t be with us much longer… your story made me cry just thinking about it. Looks like you have collected a lot of photos of Bean – which is good. We are always taking photos of Tom and Elvis…they are forever doing cute and silly things…scrap books can be a very good tribute to those little loved ones. Take care and God bless…

  16. says

    Layla,
    I am so sorry about your precious cat. I know your heart has been hurting so badly. I am so glad Kevin will be home now to give you lots of hugs and comfort.

  17. Patricia says

    I’m so sorry to hear of your loss…..one of the hardest things for us to have to do, when we love our pets so very much. Remember, that part of the love we show our pets is when we make the heart breaking decision to end their suffering, and let them go peacefully , and in the arms of the ones that loved them the best. You gave Mr. Bean, a wonderful life, full of love, warm beds, and good kitty food…..you were with him till the end……

  18. Elaine says

    My heart goes out to you Layla. I have had to put down all three of my cats over the last few years and I know how difficult it is. I still get a lump in my throat just thinking about it and them. I hope you can find comfort in knowing that you gave him a great life and much love. I believe feelings transcend and I still feel the comfort my cats gave me to this day. I know you will be able to also. I purchased a Christmas ornament with the year of each of their passings on it and inserted a picture of them in each one and every year they are remembered and hanging on my tree. Take the time to grieve and then celebrate their memory. Fondly, Elaine

  19. says

    Layla, I know how hard that was because I had to do it alone with three kitties I had that each lived to be 16, 17 and 18 years old and one Golden Retriever who lived to be 13. I had to do it completely alone each time because my husband was out of town or my adult son was off at college. It is soooo painful. It does get better. Mr. Bean was one lucky kitty to have such a caring Mommy as you. I’m so glad your sweetie is coming home today. Hey, we need another video snippet of one of his songs…loved hearing him play the times you’ve posted something before. :)
    Big Hugs coming your way,
    Susan

  20. Heather says

    Sorry to hear about Bean! So much worse to have Kevin gone at the same time. Glad to hear he will be back home today! Hugs!

  21. Bethanie says

    Layla, you make me laugh (Chicken Butt) and teary eyed about your sweet cat all in the same post. I love reading your blog and get so much inspiration from your amazing brain. Glad your sweety is coming home…that will make it all better :0) Have a wonderful day, Bethanie

  22. KK says

    “We who choose to surround ourselves
    with lives even more temporary than our
    own, live within a fragile circle;
    easily and often breached.
    Unable to accept its awful gaps,
    we would still live no other way.
    We cherish memory as the only
    certain immortality, never fully
    understanding the necessary plan.”
    — Irving Townsend

    So sorry for your lose of Bean. I know it wasn’t easy as I went through a similar scenario with my beloved Hatteras (Hattie) several years ago. She was our first “baby.” She is missed much even now. We constantly wonder, “What would Hattie have thought or done?” The above is a quote that I took comfort from after her passing. I hope that it will bring the same to you.

  23. says

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is very difficult and I am sorry that you were without Kevin. He is sunning himself is the most glorious spots right now knowing how much he was loved.
    SO glad that Kevin is coming home today. :)

  24. says

    I’m so sorry you had to say goodbye to your sweet cat…pets are so good to us.
    Thanking God that you are reuniting with your man today…..

    “reuniting and it feels sooooo good!”

  25. says

    Ahhh… so sorry about Mr. Bean. We love our pets so much, don’t we!? We just lost our Mr. Nelson… 12 year old, 140 pound lab. Maybe Mr. Bean and Mr. Nelson are havin’ coffee together, watchin’ HGTV and then takin’ a nap in a warm sunny spot!
    Enjoy your memories!
    Laurie

  26. says

    Oh goodness! Now I am crying! So sorry about Mr. Bean! We have three cats and I am dreading that day! Sending hugs and prayers your way!

  27. says

    Sorry about your kitty. It’s so hard to say goodbye to a friend. Especially when you are by yourself. Big hugs!

    Um…..so apparently we are twins. My husband just left for three weeks on business. It will be lights on all the time and Disney and hgtv. Two channels I don’t ever have to plug my ears, close my eyes and go, “la la la la la” when the commercials come on!

  28. says

    Mr. Bean was so pretty! Wow! 2 whole months without your other half? You are so strong. I absolutely HATE scary movie trailers. I have to close my eyes and cover my ears to keep from having nightmares. Love Disney & PBS. Our fat cat Zoey passed away shortly after I had a serious stint in a hospital. We couldn’t tell the kids she had died because they knew she was sick. Then I was sick and we didn’t want the little ones freaking out about mom dying. anywho, I did blog about her if you care to read. http://tantrumstriumphs.blogspot.com/2009/10/zoey.html

  29. Rene' Foust says

    So sorry for your loss, I have only had to do that one time it was with my cat of 14 years and it was the most difficult thing I have ever done! Sorry you had to experience that.

  30. Mrs. H says

    I had tears in my eyes reading this. I myself hate to be alone at night while my husband travels, and I sleep with lights and the t.v. on. I thought I was the only one! :)
    So sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Mr. Bean and I wish you a relaxing nights sleep once your hubby returns. I know I just don’t sleep well and once mine is home I sleep really deeply.

    I love your blog and all the helpful tips, keep them coming! :)

  31. Jennifer says

    I’m so sorry about Mr. Bean. I love my sweet kitty and am scared to death of the day you just faced with your own. My heart truly hurts for you. I’m so glad your hubby’s coming home soon – I know that would help me the most!

  32. says

    Oh I am so sorry. We have a cat now that we might have to find a new home for because he’s not adjusting well to a dog we rescued almost 2 years ago. It’s breaking my heart and I just keep praying we find the right home (but how to do that I don’t know). He’s been in our family for 6 years…since he was a kitten. I totally understand the connection you have to your pets…and the gut-wrenching pain of knowing that you have to make a such a painful decision…even though it’s for the best.

    Pets are family. I’m so sorry for your loss…and that you had to do it alone.

  33. Shawnda says

    I’m so sorry Layla…those little furries worm their way into our hearts and it’s sooo hard to say goodbye (especially when your spouse is away). :( Looks like Mr. Bean had a wonderful life with you and Kevin. I’m glad you’re going to be reunited with your sweetie today. Enjoy your time together.

  34. Mindy says

    Layla,
    My heart goes out to you! I went through a similar situation with our cat a few years ago and putting her down was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. It gets easier, eventually… I love the picture of him and Max on the guest room bed, it’s so sweet! Isn’t it funny how cats always manage to find even the smallest spot of sunshine in the house? :-) Hang in there, thinking of you…

  35. Ashley @ the handmade home says

    Bless you. I know you’re so relieved. Hugs and kisses you’ve been in my prayers!

  36. says

    I’m so sorry about Bean, Layla! He seems like he was a fantastic little cat! It is so hard to lose a pet, they make are such a big part of our every day lives! I’m happy for you that your Mr. is coming home today.

  37. Ashley says

    My husband is a military man and every time he leaves, regardless of whether it’s a 13 month deployment or a weekend training, I feel like I can’t fully catch my breath. I wrote a blogpost about it once and my friends thought I was crazy, so I’m glad to know there’s someone else out there who feels the same. I’m so sorry about your kitty. It always seems like the most heartwrenching things happen when I’m alone too. I think it’s God’s way of telling me that I’m a strong person on my own and I can do difficult things. ((HUGS!))

  38. says

    I’m so sorry to hear about your cat. It’s rough when they’re so sick and it just makes me ill when they’re too sick to nurse back to health. What a lucky cat to have you guys as owners!

  39. says

    I am heartsick for you. We had to let go of our beloved dachshund in December. There is never a replacement, only distraction. I think I am finally able to look back at her antics and smile instead of mourn her loss.

    It is never fun when a key member of your team is absent even if it is both necessary and understandable. You guys are an amazing and supportive couple. So glad to hear the team is reunited. If you find yourself alone again, shoot me an email and I will bring reinforcements!

  40. says

    oh man. That’s tough . I still remember my parents putting my all time favorite kitty, pierre, to sleep. He had feline leukemia, of all things….
    so sorry.

  41. Cindy Logan says

    Two months is a long time for a husband and wife to be apart, and then to have a pet die on top of it is a bit much. Glad Kevin will be home today and I hope he doesn’t have to travel again for such a long period of time.

  42. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss of Mr Bean. We recently lost our 15 yr old cat, Sam. The circumstances pretty much mirror your experience. After some time, I started going to the Humane Society, and one day a beautiful grey cat said, “Please take me home.” So I did. Smokey Bear is a delight. Life is filled with love and loss. I’m happy for you that hubby is coming home. I so enjoy your blog.

  43. AmyG says

    Layla and Kevin,
    My heart is with you – been there a year ago last October. Our Beeper was 20 1/2 years old. He was a kindergarten graduation gift for our daughter from my brother. He was here through her grade school, middle school, high school and college years. My constant companion for 20 1/2 years. I bottle fed him from three weeks old. It was like he was fine one day and by the end of the week, we were saying good-bye. I needed a large box of kleenex for sure. Hugs sent your way and Mr. Bean is your guardian angel.

  44. says

    So sorry for your loss, Layla. My cats are both pretty much in their 20’s so… I can’t go there yet.

    When I was first divorced, it took me a good long while to adjust to not being afraid of the dark. Then one day, I just started trusting my home to take care of us. Double check doors at night, etc. I don’t think much about that any longer so I suppose it’s a mind thing. Oh right… but I do think about it for one moment when I find an exterior door WIDE open in the AM! :)

    Donna

  45. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss of Mr. Bean. I know how difficult that is. I have to bring one of my cats, Minew, to be put to sleep on Wednesday. She has terminal thyroid cancer and it’s time. I rescued her after someone abandoned her on a desolate road one cold February night. She’s been a wonderful companion and very good house cat. It’s going to break our heart to lose her.

    Because we do rescue work, we unfortunately replay this scenerio more than the average person and one thing for sure, it never gets any easier.

    Take care.

  46. Tina K says

    I’m so sorry to hear about your sweet kitty. You gave him a long, wonderful life and I know he’s in a better place now. It’s so hard to let the little buggers go (we lost 2 cats within the past year). Glad your hubby is coming home today to help you through it. Big hug from north Alabama.

  47. says

    Layla, now you have me crying again. My seventeen year old long haired orange tabby passed away on April 9. It is so hard letting a pet go. He had wasted away to nothing, too. So sorry for your loss.

  48. says

    I have tears streaming down my face. I am so sorry you had to go through that, especially without Kevin. I went through a similar situation with my dog and it is absolutely heartwrenching.
    I am glad that bean isn’t in pain anymore and I am so glad that you get to see Kevin today!
    Hugs! :)

  49. Anne R. says

    As I read your post, I couldn’t help but tearing up. What a wonderful post and a beautiful tribute to Mr. Bean. It was 2 1/2 years ago that I made the heart-wrenching decision to put down my 20 year old cat. It was sooo hard, but I knew I had made the right decision as well. What wonderful and full life she lead. It’s always hard to loose a cherished member of your family, especially one you have loved for so many years. Know that you brought a lot of love and a wonderful life to your sweet kitty!

    Thank you for your daily inspiration and reminding us that even that even the smallest creatures can bring an incredible source of love and joy to our lives.

    God Bless You!

  50. says

    Layla and Kevin, I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is one of the most heart wrenching things you can go through. They become part of your family, and I can tell by the beautiful photos you have of him, that you loved him very much. So glad your hubby is coming home and you can grieve together.

  51. Katie says

    Oh, how we love our furr-babies. Thinking of you – and the cat who was so lucky to have you as his mama.

  52. Courtney H. says

    I’m so sorry to hear about your sweet baby. This made me tear up… I was holding it in since I’m at work. I understand the bond between a person and their animals since I adopted by two babies from the Humane Society. The pictures you got of Mr. Bean were wonderful though. What a way to remember him! This makes me want to take good pictures of my two little rascals. Hugs from Birmingham!! So glad Kevin is coming home today!

  53. says

    Layla, I am SO sorry to read about Bean! My heart aches for you. I have two kitties and I know that day will come for me too and it will break my heart as well.

    I’m glad your hubby is coming home today though!! That’s great news! :)

  54. says

    Layla, I’m so sorry for your loss. It such a tough decision to make, but usually the right one. Growing up, I had a cat that looked very much like Mr. Bean, and he suffered what seems like the same fate (sudden weight loss, tooth problems). Turns out he had a cancerous tumor in his mouth, the poor thing. I’ll never forget going to the vet with him for the last time. I”m glad that your hubby will be home soon, because you need a hug!

  55. says

    Layla,
    I am so sorry for the loss of such a sweet gift. I feel like pets are one of the sweetest ways our Father loves us in the physical. Their love is so pure and unconditional and constant. We give so much to them and they give so much back to us. You were lucky to have each other… and he knew that very much. Sending you a blog hug… hoping you can feel it.

  56. says

    I’m so sorry to hear about your beautiful Bean — always heartbreaking to lose a member of our animal family. Your lovely photos are a wonderful tribute to your sweet friend. Wishing you comfort and happy to hear you’ll be reunited with Mr. :-)

  57. shannon says

    So Sorry about your loss. I had to put my cat to sleep a few years ago and last year I sat on the living room floor with our Golden Retriever petting her as she slipped away – (she basically had a heart attack and could not be revived), its very sad – like losing a family member. My thoughts are with you today.

  58. Kelly G says

    From one loving pet owner to another I send you my condolences. Pets come in our lives and touch our heart so profoundly that their loss can be stifling. He is gone but not forgotten. I found solice in poetry from other pet lovers. Here is one for you.

    Take care

    The one best place to bury a good friend
    is in the heart of its master.
    ~Ben Hur Lampman

  59. Elisabeth says

    There are really no words to describe the pain you must be feeling. Plus to be magnified by having to do it alone! I’m so glad Kevin is coming back so that you may find comfort in each other. You gave Mr. Bean a wonderful and full life and that is something that will always bring joy. We are commanded to be the caretaker of the animals and you did your job! Blessings to you all.

  60. says

    Oh Layla, so sorry about your loss. I had to make the difficult decision to say goodbye to our dog about 1 year and a half ago, and I felt I couldn’t breath for weeks on end. I still miss him so much. I just keep reminding myself that I did it for him, because he was in sooo much pain. A friend told me that everytime I felt a breeze on my face, that it was my dog Muskoka letting me know that he was with me in spirit. It made me smile everytime I felt or feel a breeze.

  61. says

    Layla,
    Sending (((BIG HUGS))) to you…I empathize completely with everything you talked about today, and spent the entire time reading your post nodding my head, with tears in my eyes….I am a Navy Spouse, so I deal with the comings-and-goings of my guy too. We are getting ready for him to leave on a 7 month long deployment in July. There’s nothing like the day your guy gets back after a long time away. Enjoy your precious time together and, yes, *exhale* ~ also, so sorry to hear about your gorgeous Mr Bean. It’s truly heartbreaking dealing with the loss of a furry-family-member. Sending Love & Light your way ~ Kirsty xoxo

  62. says

    It’s so hard to say goodbye to part of the family, especially when the hubby isn’t home to hold your hand. At least Mr. Bean was loved during his happy life with you, and he will always remember that. He was loved.

  63. GinaE says

    Sending you lots of prayers and yellow light to help you through your loss of Bean. I have a house full of “old folks” right now. It is always soooo hard to have to say good bye when the time comes. They really are my kids to me, as your kitty was to you. So glad your guy will be home soon. Enjoy the homecoming!!

  64. Christine says

    So sorry for you loss! Saying good bye to pets is the worst.

    On a lighter note, I am extremely happy to hear that I am not the only one who leaves their TV on Disney and HGTV. It brings me comfort to know that I never have to wince through a commercial…or mute it so I’m not scared out of my mind when I’m alone :)

    Have a good day with the Mister!

  65. Wendy says

    So sorry for your loss. Bean was beautiful and very loved. Bean looks like our beloved Shelby’s long-lost twin. Sadly, we lost Shelby in March as well. She would have turned 18 this past Friday. We miss her and her sister very much. Glad your husband will be home soon. Hugs, Wendy

  66. Allyson says

    I’m so sorry for what you both went through and for your loss. I’ve been there and know it isn’t easy. The only consolation is that he isn’t suffering anymore. Love, light and prayers are sent your way.

  67. says

    Oh, I´m so sorry – I always tear up when reading about things like this. Been through it twice and it was awful both times, but your vet is right; you do all you can and then you have to let go. :-(

  68. Sara says

    Layla, I am so sorry about Mr. Bean. I know it is hard losing a pet. I’m sure you gave him the best life he could’ve had!
    Yay for Kevin coming home! I know you’re tired of the Disney channel ;)

  69. says

    I’m so sorry about your loss. He was a beautiful kitty too. If anything, at least he isn’t suffering anymore. =(

    At least your hubby will be home soon! Totally know how that feels… I usually leave the tv on hgtv or food channel and all the lights on too when I’m home alone.

  70. says

    Oh, you’re sweet, sweet kitty. I’m so sorry. I’m all choked up right now. Losing a pet is the worst.

    And I am just like you. I HATE to sleep alone. Lights on. I check the doors several times to make sure they’re locked. And if something goes “bump” in the night, I freak! Glad your hubby is coming home and you can snuggle in his warm, safe arms tonight.

  71. Amanda says

    I’m so sorry about your sweet Mr. Bean, and that you had to go through that alone. We have a 14.5 yr old lab mix and a 14 yr old cat, and I know our time will come for this, too, sooner rather than later.

    It will be so good to have your guy home again!

  72. Deborah says

    I’m so sad for your loss of Mr. Bean. I glad that you have so many pictures of him. They can be a gentle reminder of your friend when your heart remembers him (and aches a little, too). I’m really glad Kevin is coming home so you can both grieve together for the loss of your friend.

    It’s funny, we’ve never met but I feel like I should know you. You inspire me, sweetie. Be sure to give Maximus extra love and attention. I’m sure he will feel the loss of Bean.

    Peace be yours…

  73. says

    I am so sorry about Mr. Bean. I haven’t had to make the decision to relieve a pet’s suffering yet (my parents have made those decisions until I got out on my own), and I tear up when I think that I may have to with one of my two kitties one day. I pray that the wonderful memories of him will continue to overcome the sadness of his absence.

  74. says

    Oh, Layla. I’m so sorry to hear about Mr. Bean. We adopted our Gomer Pyle a few days before my husband’s first deployment and he was my partner for many years, we lost him 2 years ago and the pain still hits me like a ton of bricks.

    I’m praying for you…

  75. Deb-IL says

    Oh, (((Layla))) I’m so sorry for your loss. Our furbabies become as much our family as humans do. You and Kevin provided Mr Bean with love and a wonderful life for 13 years and at some point the memories will give comfort and the ache will soften.

  76. Teresa says

    Thinking of you with much sympathy and compassion for your loss – and so happy your love will be home to bring some joy back into your life!!
    warm hugs from lower alabama
    xoxox

  77. says

    Layla,

    I am sorry to hear this sad news. Unfortunately, I know from experience, how hard it is to ‘do the right thing’ for your animal. If I could, I’d reach out from this MacBook and give you a big hug. I’ve never been without a cat or two. A favorite quote explains why:
    I love cats because I love my home and after a while they become its visible soul. ~Jean Cocteth

    Your Friend,
    Deborah

  78. says

    I am so sorry that you have lost your precious kitty Bean. It is never easy to say good bye and I have said good bye to family pets it seems way too many times. Hang on to the sweet memories of him and take comfort in the fact that you gave him a loving and comfortable home. My heart goes out to you.

    Danielle

  79. says

    Oh, Beanie. You are one cute cat. Please play around with all of my friends Up There with you. Give ‘em a cuddle for me, wouldja?

    El – I’m so happy you’re back with your Main Squeeze. (And be watching the mail for a little something from me! It’s on its way…) ;)

  80. Robin Crittenden says

    I understand and feel your pain. We lost two cats last week and it was just horrible. He will live in your memories, the wonderful pictures you took of him and your heart.

    Robin in Virginia

  81. Kristi-WestMichigan says

    Poor girl, I really feel for you. Mr. Bean was a beautiful kitty and I bet he had a long wonderful life with you guys. Cats have a way of touching our hearts in ways nobody else can. I’m so sorry for your loss.
    We had to put down our 4 year old Great Dane a couple of weeks ago. He was in pain all the time from bad hips. It was a gut-wrenching decision but it’s what we had to do for him and for us. We miss him dearly, but knowing he isn’t hurting anymore is comforting and now I can smile when I think about him and all the wonderful memories we made together <3

  82. Monique says

    I’m so sorry about Mr. Bean. He sounds like a wonderful buddy and he’s fortunate that a kind hearted soul picked him up and took him home. Glad your husband is coming home soon so your not alone.

  83. says

    I’m sorry for your loss, it had to be incredibly hard to see your poor kitty sick. I am sure having Kevin home will make things a lot better!

  84. says

    Oh Layla, I’m so sorry. We just put our cat down this month as well. It was very painful to watch her get sick and have to make that decision. I love your retrospective for him! Hang in there.

  85. Dawn says

    Sorry to hear about Bean! He will be missed! I am glad Kevin will be home to soon to help you get over it.

  86. says

    Oh! You just made me cry … and I am barely awake :) You are an inspiration. Enjoy your hubby time. You gave your kitty boy a lot of good years and love. It is never easy to say goodbye though. Hugs to you!

  87. says

    Aw I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your Mr. Bean. It’s never easy to loose a pet – specially when you are alone for it. Many hugs!

  88. says

    I’m so very sorry to hear about your sweet Mr. Bean. Our furbabies are so hard to let go. They give sooo much of themselves in such a short period of time. We never have enough time with them. I’m happy for you both that Kevin is coming home. It will be nice to have your family back together again!

  89. Jerrilyn says

    It’s so sad when one of our furry ones pass. I’m sure Mr. Bean was very happy to have you as his human. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  90. Carolyn says

    Oh Layla i am so sorry about Bean. I feel your pain and can relate. The same thing happened to our 14 year old Tigger. He was down to bones within 3 months and i was literally keeping him alive. He just wanted me to hold him all day. He could hardly walk or stand and would fall when trying to walk. We were keeping him alive for my college son to see him before we let go. He stood at the back door crying so loud wanting out that my heart broke so i let him go outside. He never left our backyard – little did I know that was the last time I would see him. He went off to die on his own terms. I know he is happy and running around with all the other animals and children in Heaven – i bet he is even playing with Bean. It makes me smile to think that but will always miss him! Enjoy spending time and being with your husband! Those moments are so precious — Many blessings to you!

  91. says

    Layla, I am so sorry for you loss. Losing a beloved pet truly is heartbreaking. I love the gorgeous photos you posted of him, what a beautiful kitty.
    I’m sorry, too, that you had to deal with this without having your hubby there. You must be beyond excited to see him – those two months must have seemed like forever! Glad to know you’ll be together again soon (and you can sleep with all the lights off again). :)

  92. says

    Glad to hear Kevin is on his way home but very very sorry to hear about Bean. So hard when we lose one. I dread the day that I lose one of my current fur babies. Can’t stand to think about it because I’ve been through it and I know how bad it is. Nice to know that you will be happy tonight when Kevin gets back home.

  93. says

    Layla,

    I’m so sorry about your kitty. He must be in kitty heaven and it will nice to have Kevin home to give you hugs.

    Karen

  94. says

    I am SO SORRY for your loss. We just had to say goodbye to our little dog Rikki a week ago Saturday. You can see him here if you want. :) https://www.facebook.com/album.php?fbid=10150550835715287&id=577930286&aid=650740&l=204837b7fa

    But I know firsthand how our furry babies become “children” especially during the adoption process. We are in the process of adopting domestically (we started July 2009), so it’s been a long road.

    Anyway, allow yourself to grieve. It’s a very real loss and it’ll take a little time. And know that there are others out there who really do understand. {hugs}

  95. says

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your baby. We had to let our 14 year old dog (half pug/half shih-tzu) go this past June, and it was truly heart wrenching. It’s been almost a year and I still miss her every single day. It’s amazing how they become a part of your family. How’s your pup doing? Our other 2 dogs were so sad and miserable without her and it took them months (and us getting another female dog) to get back to their normal selves. Mourn your baby well. I know he deserves it. Hugs to you, Kevin and your pup.

  96. says

    I am really sorry for the loss of your dear old friend, Mr. Bean. Its hard to say goodbye to a pet that has been a loyal companion for so long. But to see them suffer is hard too. I hope the memories you made together will help get you through the tough adjustment time of missing him!

  97. Linda G says

    I am holding you close in my thoughts. Always know that you did the loving thing. Remember all the good times and smile.

  98. Tiffany Baird says

    I am so sorry for your loss in Mr. Bean, such a beautiful cat! Reading your post brought tears to my eyes. I can’t imagine how difficult that was for you to go through, especially without your hubby. So glad he is coming home today! Love your blog, website, etc, etc. You guys are an inspiration!!

  99. says

    I’m so sorry for you. Just reading the post had me in tears. I know how sad you must be and can only hope that the idea that your cat had such a wonderful life will help you. Hugs from France.

  100. says

    Big sigh, I’m really sorry about your sweet kitty. And now I’m weeping…goodbyes just plain stink. That must have been really tough to deal with on your own, too- I’m glad you won’t be alone for much longer! :)

  101. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart hurts for you. Glad your hubby is coming home. I know that feeling well. I’m also glad to know that i’m not the only one who has to sleep with the lights on as well as the Disney channel ONLY when he is away. Thoughts are with you.

  102. Bev says

    That was a beautiful story ! RIP Bean !!!! Made be think of our cat September , we had to do the same :(

  103. says

    Your sweet Bean looked just like my dear Stella who had a undiagnosed ailment. I too went to the vet many times and in the end nothing helped her to stay with us. Stella was the most amazing cat. I would walk through the living room and she would literally chase me gently grabbing at my calves. She has been my best cat I ever had and hands down my favorite. Stella has been gone for a year now and I still cry.

    I am so sorry for your loss.

  104. tanya says

    Don’t worry! He is in cat heaven with his twin, Doofy. And Doof is telling Mr. Bean “You know, YOUR owner was the smart one. Mine was the dork who would. not. let. go. I finally had to hurl myself in a pond when her back was turned. I did not like iv’s, i did not like pills, i did not like being fed through a tube in my throat, i did not like being shaved, I did not like needles…what was she THINKING? Humans!” and i bet Bean was saying “operative word, Doofy-thinking-” and then they scamper off to a sunbeam in which to sleep. I’m sorry-I know it hurts.

  105. says

    Layla, I’m extremely sorry to hear about Mr. Bean’s passing.
    I’ve been there before with my beloved cat, Jake. Its tough but time lessens the loss.
    So glad Kevin is coming home and you can sleep better now!
    Take care ~Brooke

  106. Angela says

    As a USN wife, I know how hard it is to hold your breath (the longest I did it was 8 months…gives you a headache when you do it too long!!) until your hubby is back, safe & sound, & you can finally relax when you sleep!
    I’m so sorry to read about Mr. Bean (great name, btw…a fan of British humor perhaps? I’m a Brit, born & raised, but now a naturalized – & very proud – American). I have 2 feline babies & I can’t imagine how hard it’d be to watch their suffering & be doing everything for them only to have to put them to sleep!

  107. says

    I am SO sorry to hear about your cat. I had the same situation with my dog of 17 years a while back, and it is one of the hardest things. I now have a cat, who looks very similar to yours, and it will hurt very much when he passes too. Again, my condolences about your beloved animal.
    Best,
    Gloria

  108. says

    I’m so very sorry to hear about Mr. Bean – we just had to bury our kitty Baxter yesterday. He too had been suffering this past week and stopped eating, slowly becoming a cat we no longer knew. He waited until my daughter got home to take his final breaths. It’s been a rough week for us, but we know he’s no longer suffering. My husband and I rescued him from a local animal shelter back when we first started dating 11 years ago. He was a great cat. Hugs to you and Kevin!

  109. says

    Losing a pet is so heartbreaking. I’m sorry about Mr. Bean, but he apparently had a very wonderful life and was loved much.

    Don’t know how I found your blog but I did.

    Take care.

    Barbara (aka Layla – its my nickname I used back in my rock band days)

  110. Dawn says

    All my sympathy. Mr. Bean was a very handsome fellow and he was lucky to have a long and happy life with you. Tabby cats are the best in my opinion :) Sending lots of good vibes your way.

  111. says

    Here’s to BEAN! A cat whose luck changed the day you entered his life. He lived a cat’s dream; good care, good food, good shelter and especially love!
    Take care,
    Rita

  112. says

    OH, Layla so sorry to hear about your little bean. May your heart sing knowing he is no longer in pain and now watching over you:(

  113. says

    I’m so sorry to hear about your cat, as a cat lover myself my heart goes out to you and yes this post made me cry. I have 4 cats and a dog and they bring me so much joy. Awhile back my one cat went missing and every day I thought about her, expected her to never come back. I cried every morning until one afternoon I got a phone call from our local animal shelter saying that they had a cat recently rescued that fit the description of mine. On pins and needles I went there with my son and husband and sure enough it was our Custard, so I cried out of joy. I am sorry for your loss and sorry that it couldn’t be a different story for you. Take care!

  114. says

    So sorry for your loss. I said goodbye to our first cat, Miss Murphy the Boss Lady 2 years ago when she was suffering from kidney failure. And, our female dog, Grand River Medicine Oak, almost 1 year ago. While we still have 2 dogs and one cat, I miss those girls a lot. They were my buddies (the rest of the pets are boys).
    Glad your husband will be home soon. Mine travels for work, but has never been away for 2 months!

  115. Shannon says

    I am reading this post sobbing at my desk. I am an animal lover through and through (and a panic sufferer as well). Animals bring so much to our lives and they become like children. I have 3 cats and a dog and I love each of them for their interesting little personalities and their eccentric behavior. It breaks my heart to hear that Bean (cutest cat name ever!) is in a better place. I loved seeing posts about him or pictures with him in it. Thoughts are with you, your husband, and Maximus. Take care!

  116. says

    I started crying when I read your post. We just lost one of our kitties a few months back. Like you, we struggled for weeks trying to get her better and just when you think everything is ok… well you know the story. My husband and I are close and if he hadn’t been here to cry with me day in and day out I don’t know what I would have done. I’m so sorry that you two were apart when this happened but very happy to hear he is coming home today. It will be so comforting and you’ll cry all over again. Take care of each other and enjoy each and every precious day :)

  117. Heather says

    Awwww….so, so sorry about the Bean! I am going to miss him, too! What a pretty boy. I love my kitty so much. Glad the Mr. is coming home. Yes!

  118. Debbie says

    I am so sorry you had to go through that alone. Please call if you ever again need any help. I know Mr. Bean was well loved and he returned love as only a cat can do. I know how you feel – two cats last year and one this year. When the girls moved to their apartment they took their cats with them. Crazy people that we are, we thought we could live without cats. We lasted a week and three days. Now Bonnie and Clyde call us their owners. Even Daisy dog has perked up!

  119. Colleen says

    I am so sorry to hear about Bean. I’m tearing up just reading about it. We have two cats, and I can’t imagine what you are going through. I’m glad your hubby will be home soon so you can comfort each other.

  120. says

    very sorry for your loss, Layla. i know first hand, the heartbreak you’re feeling… and feel for you. am happy your man will arrive home so you can sleep with the lights off though.. hang in there!
    blessings,
    -tracie

  121. Denise says

    Layla,

    I was so sorry to read about your sweet Bean. What is it about animals? They crawl right into our hearts, take up 3 times they space they need, and leave a great big o’ hole when it is their time to go. Still mourning over my sweet, sweet yellow dog.

    On a lighter note, your hubby comes home tonight! Enjoy!!

  122. maggie says

    Aw Layla, I’m so sorry for your loss. Letting a pet go like that cuts your heart every time you have to do it.
    Someone sent me this right after I had to have my sweet little dog Miss Molly (who was 18) put to sleep.

    In their short lives our pets give us all they can…their friendship, unselfish love and total loyalty.
    There comes a time when we must give back to them… their peace, their freedom and their dignity.

    Hugs to you and Kevin and Max

  123. Tina says

    It was so sad to read of your news. It looks like you have wonderful memories of Mr. Bean and that he was so loved and in a happy home. My heart goes out to you.

  124. Rachel Carey says

    So sorry to hear Layla that Mr. Bean crossed the rainbow bridge. Along with loving a pet, we have to let them go. The very last thing we can do for them is to allow them to live a life without pain…we have to help them along when it’s time. He’s now in kitty heaven, he’s safe and he’s happy.

    We all dread these times, but along with pain will come happiness.

  125. Amy N. says

    So sorry to hear about Bean! I know that losing a pet is a lot like losing a member of the family.

  126. says

    In honor of Mr. Bean (and The Lettered Cottage, of course) I’ve just made a donation to ARF our no-kill pet shelter. They do great work on behalf of homeless cats and dogs here in North Texas. Mr. Bean would be proud to know that another great kitty will find a good home just because of him. Blessings and hugs to you guys during these sad days.

  127. Leslie says

    Oh, Layla, as a lifelong cat “mom,” I’m so sorry to read about Mr. Bean’s passing, but big hugs to you for trying so hard to help him feel better, and for doing the right thing to ease his discomfort in the end. It’s so hard to see our feline pals suffer and it’s never an easy decision to give up and let them go, but it’s the other most important decision you can make for them after you’ve welcomed them into your life. Be glad that you had him in your world for so many years and that you gave him a good life, because I’m sure he knew how lucky he was to have you both as his “people,” so, hard as it is to lose him, try to take comfort in that.

  128. Sabrina says

    Brought back so many memories from August when we had to put our first pet to sleep after ten years. A great dog named Buster who I can think about and cry at any given moment! So sorry for your loss of Bean. It’s hard loving animals so much sometimes.

  129. says

    I am so so sorry you had to go through that recently, it is just so hard; We put down a beloved lab last month, it was time but so hard to say goodbye. I surround myself with my fur family of cats and dogs(well, one now), and they are all special, you hate the void that’s left when they go. Prayers to you, d

  130. Jena K says

    Oh Layla,

    I’m so sorry about your kitty. (I’m sitting here at work reading this with tears streaming down my face.) I know your heart must break. We have a 17 year “old man” kitty ourselves and I keep praying that he just goes in his sleep one night and that we don’t have to watch his condition deteriorate more. It sounds like you loved Bean to the end and took good care of him. He was a gift to you and you to him.

    When I was a teenager, in Sunday School someone once challenged our teacher about whether animals were in heaven since they supposedly don’t have souls (yah right!). My very wise teacher responded that the Bible tells us that heaven is a place of happiness. And so heaven will contain whatever it takes to make us happy. And that if ihaving our beloved pets with us in heaven makes it happy, he thought that God would see to it. Even as an adult, I’ve used those pearls of wisdom with my kids at times like this–and I don’t know about all you guys, but I have quite a few beloved pets and it makes me feel better to think I will see them again one day.

    Hugs to you–thank you for celebrating Bean’s life with us!

  131. Kristi @ Creative Kristi says

    Oh I am so sorry about your loss! :( :( It’s always hard to lose a part of the family!
    I hear you about the big breath & Disney/HGTV LOL my hubby is preparing for another 12 month + deployment and my breath is already in short little breaths. :( so happy he’s home with you now!! :)

  132. says

    I’m so so so sorry for your loss! I got all choked up for you! Loosing kitties is so rough, but I’m sure Bean is happily hunting mice in cat heaven.

  133. says

    Hi Layla-

    So sorry to hear about Mr. Bean. It is so hard to have to day goodbye to our loving pets, but
    I couldn’t imagine not having them at all – they make our lives so much better. It is nice that you have so many wonderful photos of him – so that he will always be around visually as well as in your heart.
    My best- Diane

  134. Lisa Hankins says

    So sorry to hear about Mr. Bean :( My fur babies are just like kids to me and I know how horrible the loss feels. Glad Kevin is coming home and can comfort you sweety! Remember how much love Bean gave and how much you gave him right back, the things he did that made you smile and know he was grateful for your constant love.

  135. Melinda says

    So sorry about your cat. Pet’s are precious members of our families and their losses grieved. Happy your hubby is going to be home to comfort you…

  136. says

    My heart is with you! My eyes are full of tears about your sad experience. I know your sadness! My sister and I grew up with Buzzby the cat, aka The Buzz, for 18 years. He was a Christmas kitten for us in 1993 and this past Thanksgiving weekend he went for a walk with my dad and the pups just like always. But that time, he didn’t come home. He’d been diabetic for a few years and that was under control, but his appetite had changed and he had become somewhat senile, too, meowing and moaning at his water bowl. What made my sister and me most sad is that he decided to take that last moment on his own, without us there with him. I’m happy for you, that you got that last little goodbye with Mr. Bean, no matter how sad it was. My heart goes out to you!

  137. Linda says

    Oh Layla,

    I know how hard it is. I was a basket case in a similar situation. My vet said after my sobs “Linda, bring her in”. I had to call my husband at work to come with me. You gave him a good life. I’m sure he’s smiling down at you with love.

  138. says

    When I lived in Michigan I had the most awesome tabby Milo. When I moved back to Cali, my dad fell in love with him and I couldn’t separate them. So for years I would see Milo when I went home to visit. Last year Milo began to lose teeth, and my mom notice he was smacking his dry food. Then he was swallowing it whole. She took him to the vet and all of his teeth were falling apart. He also had thyroid disease. It was awful for our family to lose him after almost 14 years. He was chief gopher/ground squirrel officer on the ranch for so long. The great ones are usually tabbies.

  139. Dorothy says

    Oh, so sorry about Mr. Bean, Layla. At first I was going to kid you about being scared alone at night, since my husband tends to work contract engineering jobs out of state -ick-and I know what that’s like. But then I read about your pretty kitty, and got all teared up. It’s so so hard to lose a beloved pet member of your family. Take care.

  140. says

    Oh Layla,

    I am so sorry about Bean. She will leave a big hole, but good kitty memories will fill it up. Now she’s not in any pain, and seeing a beloved animal in pain is horrible. You did the loving thing for her.

    Congrats on getting your hubby back. He looks very rockin’ in the photo – you will have a fun homecoming!

  141. says

    I’m so sorry to hear about Bean. I’ve been through that myself, and it is so difficult. I’m glad you have some wonderful pictures and memories of him.

    Enjoy having your husband back at home!

  142. mcgrathinnol says

    My heart aches for your loss of Mr. Bean. It brings back tears to my eyes because I can’t help but think of my beloved Douglass (black kitty) who died 5 1/2 years ago. You see I was on the Gulf Coast when my New Orleans home was flooded and my sweet Douglass drowned in 11 ft of water. Loosing a pet always leaves a hole….Douglass will surely meet Mr. Bean at the Rainbow Bridge.

  143. carla raney says

    Sorry Layla about how sucky the last month or two has been. I totally get it when you said waiting to exhale. and sleeping with the lights off and no scary stuff of t.v and that is hard to find these days. That is Allong time for you to be alone girl. I am soooo glad he is on his way home.

  144. says

    Oh Layla I am so sorry to hear about your kitty Mr. Bean. I almost lost my kitty Figaro, whom you’ve drawn before years ago, a few years ago. I was devastated, but I was fortunate that he pulled through. I will be thinking about you for sure. I also can relate to being in a lonely house. My husband left for California for 9 days and I’ve been pretty lonesome myself. I just pray I can get to sleep at night. But it is always wonderful to miss them as it makes their homecoming very special.

  145. says

    I had to laugh about you being scared to stay alone. I was exactly the same way for many years (luckily, I’ve gotten better.) The part that made me laugh was when you said you watched Disney or HGTV so you wouldn’t see anything scary. My thoughts exactly! (I watched QVC also) Glad to know my silly mind isn’t the only one that thinks this way! :)

    Sorry to hear about Mr. Bean.

  146. says

    Dear Layla,

    So sorry to hear about Mr.Bean. What a beautiful guy he was.

    I know exactly how you feel. My orange tabby, Whisper, was with me for 21 years and just like that… one day he had decided he was tired and very ready to go. It was sudden, but so very sad. I miss him still.

    Much love and good thoughts to you and Kevin.

    Janet xox
    http://theemptynest-janet.blogspot.com

  147. laurie f says

    It is amazing that there are people out there who have so much in common and who would have never crossed paths without this new thing called the internet! Two days, two months, being away from someone you love is never easy! You are stronger than I am in that area and I am quite independent! HGTV and FoodNetwork are my two go-to’s! Nice to hear you have your tv station security blankets too! Stay positive! :)

  148. says

    I’m so sorry, Layla. I had to take our family dog in for the last time over 7 years ago and I still get choked up about it. I was starting to tear up reading this post, but then my 18 month old daughter came over to the laptop and started saying, “Daw, daw, daw” (dog, dog, dog) at every picture…even Mr. Bean’s picture. :) I then tried to get her to say, “Cat” instead, but with no luck.

  149. Margy says

    my heart is breaking for you. i lost two when they were 16 and 18. never easy. love the little one i have now. glad your honey is coming home to help you through.

  150. sandy says

    I cried so hard for you today. I’m sorry for the loss of your little kitty, but I am happy your hubby will be home to give you some comfort.

  151. Pam says

    So sorry about the loss of Mr. Bean…pets hold such special places in our hearts…it sounds like you loved him and gave him an awesome life…he knew how much you loved him. Hugs.

  152. says

    You’ve got me crying like a baby – I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. I’m so glad to see you have many beautiful photographs of Bean. Hope you and Kevin have a beautiful reunion — Best wishes to you both.

  153. Dorrie Bell says

    I am so sorry for your lose! He’s a beautiful cat! So glad that Max was with you until Kev could get home to share this with you.
    I know how you feel about being home without your mister. I have a terrible time sleeping when mine is gone. Never tried Disney.

    Know that all of us out here that faithfully follow you have a special place in our hearts for you and your fam. :)

  154. Barbara F says

    Heartbroken for you over the loss of Mr. Bean. I’m glad Max was there with you, and so glad Kev is now home too.

    Hugs,

    Barbara

  155. says

    Only people who have loved a pet can know how that feels…When we have pets, it’s our job to make the decisions for them because as humanlike as they might seem, they need us for that. I’m sure you made the kindest, best decision. Thinking of you…

  156. says

    Layla~
    Sorry to hear about Mr. Bean.
    I can tell he was more than a cherished kitty.
    So glad your Honey is coming home soon.

    take care.
    Pat

  157. says

    Oh, Layla…..my heart just breaks for you, sweetie. I know all too well how deeply we all love our furbabies and when we must make that horrible decision….well….it just never gets any easier. They become our little furry children….our heartbeats at our feet. My dear old 16 y/o calico, Sophie, has been losing weight lately. I had to switch her to canned food from her normal dry food. She’s still eating pretty well, but I sit with her and hold her dish coercing her to eat more at dinnertime. She has always been my favorite. Sweet, cuddly, and has been my sweet little bed buddy all these years – curling up beneath the covers against my chest. I always sleep better when I can hear and feel her soft purr rumbling away. I know her days are numbered….and I will hold her closer tonight and treasure the days ahead even more now.

    I’m glad that Kevin will be home soon to hold you tightly and be your rock. Just remember that there is just one more angel watching over you and waiting for you at The Rainbow Bridge. ♥

    Hugs ~

    xoxo laurie

  158. Cindy says

    Layla and Kevin: You are in my thoughts and prayers. It is never easy to lose our pets. When my husband and I had to say good-bye to our sheltie, it was the hardest day of our lives, but we knew that it was the right thing to do for him. We knew that we had a responsibility to take care of our pet. I am glad that Kevin will be coming home and the two of you will have some much needed time together. Cindy

  159. says

    Mr. Bean is not gone-he will be with you forever. You will swear he is there-you’ll catch a glimpse of him in his favorite spot. You’ll find one of his treasures hidden somewhere. You’ll pick up something covered in cat hair. He’s there. Sounds like he let you know he was ready. They tell you and trust you with their life.

    We lost Peepers (raised by our hands from 3 days old) just before Christmas in 2005. I really thought I would not make it through that. (She was our child.) We were without a pet since then, until September 11, 2010. I had told my husband that I would wait-the cat for us would be dropped on us. Lost my brother unexpectedly March 15, 2010. The Ides of March (fitting for him). Mavi Kedi was literally brought to our door on 9/11. A perfect baby of about 5 weeks old. I fully believe that my brother was in cahoots with God to send us another cat on a memorable date (like his passing). I also believe that they put Peepers into that little gray hellion that was dropped into our life. They laugh every day about it. But she is perfect for us, just like Peepers was perfect for us.

    Healing will take time but it will come. If the desire of your heart becomes getting another cat, one will come to you, bringing some Mr. Bean with them.

    Bless you and Kevin as you work through this

  160. Ursula says

    It is so hard to let go of a beloved companion, but you did the right thing. So sorry for your loss…

  161. Brooke says

    Mr. Bean was so lucky to have you. You and Kevin were great kitty parents and you did the right thing for him.

    I have made a donation to the vet office that my daughter works at in Beans name. They take in kittens/cats from the local shelter when it their time is almost up and they keep them at office until they find a great home. The current kitties just had purple soft paws put on their claws so they match the staff uniforms, the boys too!

    Welcome home Kevin!

    xoxo

  162. Jeanne says

    Oh Layla, I’m so sorry for your loss. The house won’t feel quite as empty when Kevin gets home. I am crazy about animals and it seems I am always worrying about one or the other. Thank you for rescuing Bean and for providing such a loving home for him. He was a very lucky cat and I’m sure he gave just as much love back. Keeping you in my thoughts.

  163. says

    Layla, I’m so sorry to hear about your sweet cat. I have two precious cats, and can’t even imagine the pain of having to say goodbye to one of them. My heart just breaks for you. So glad your hubby is coming home, though!!

  164. says

    I am happy that your hubby is on his way home, but I am so sorry about your beloved kitty! It is always so hard to lose a pet. They have a special place in your heart, and you just grow to love them so much.

  165. Lisa Rafferty says

    Oh what a handsome kitty boy Mr. Bean was! And what an awesome life I’m sure he had with a momma who loved him so much! My husband is a vet, so the loss of a cherished family pet is something we are very familiar with, both professionally and personally. Your post was such a lovely tribute to him.

  166. says

    I’m so sorry Layla. It’s so difficult to say good-bye to our pets.
    You did the right thing — but that doesn’t make it any easier. We just said good-bye this past year to our little yorkie, Maddie — after 12 years of her in our life. We still miss her.
    Prayin’ you. Have a wonderful reunion with your man!

  167. says

    Oh, I am so sorry :( For the first time in my life I had to put down my dog in 2008. We rescued him at when he was 12 years old and had him nearly 2 years. He spent the final 6-7 months battling this weird autoimmune thing that left him with such swollen paws that he would lick incessantly (around the cone on his neck – he was tricky that way). He basically couldn’t really walk and when he did they would basically bleed. It was bad. I still struggle a bit with if we should have just pumped him with antibiotics (it made it sort of manageable, still not good though) but I worried it would just kill his kidneys and only be a very temporary solution. And we only had him 2 years, never mind his whole life.

    Anyway, I hope you feel better soon. He looks like he was a beautiful cat.

  168. says

    I just had to come and tell you I am sorry about your loss. I hope you are doing better, losing a pet is always so hard!

    p.s. I am really glad your hubby is coming home, I think I would have gone crazy! Two months is a really long time!

  169. Mindy says

    I feel your pain and am so sorry. We just put down our 18 year-old “kitty” and it was just like you said, heart-wrenching. We wanted to be there with her to say good-bye and have her go surrounded by our love, but it was an incredibly hard thing to do( and watch). We’re just praying God has a special place up there for animals, too. Wouldn’t it be nice to see them again? Glad you have great pictures, and wonderful memories, of your Mr. Bean.

  170. says

    Oh my goodness, I am so sorry about your cat. The floodgates were opened for me while reading the story of his passing. I must say I also do all the same things when my husband is out of town… no scary commercials, shows, etc., and of course the lights on at night. Good to know that I’m not the only one doing this:)
    Meg

  171. says

    Awww… sounds like it’s a VERY good thing your hubby is comming home now… I know first hand how horrible a pain it is to loose a loved pet. And I am dreading the day my own cats grow old and I have to make that decision again… They’re like our little babies arent they. Bringing us so much joy and truthfully a bit of pain-in-the-ass sometimes :D He sounds like a lucky cat, with a long life… you did the right thing for sure! I hope you decide to get another cat though. It usually feels alot better when you have a new kitten to look after!

  172. says

    Soooo sorry, Layla and Kev… the sadest……..and now…… the BEST…EST…Kev is home!
    By the By…
    I hope the tour was a success!
    *Lynne*
    {with love}

  173. Kim in MD says

    I’m so sad to hear about Mr. Bean…our pets really are part of our family. It sounds like he lived an amazing life with you and Kevin. I’ms so glad that Kevin is coming home today! You two are so cute! :-)

  174. says

    layla i’m really sorry! i had to put a pet down a couple of years ago and it really is one of the worst things to have to do.
    glad your mister is comin’ home to comfort you!

  175. Amanda says

    Oh Layla I’m truly sorry for your loss, I now have a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. Glad Kevin is home and hope the tour was awesome. Warm hugs to you.
    Cheers, Amanda

  176. Heather Adams says

    I’m so, so sorry to hear about your cat :( I’m currently living in South Korea teaching English and I’ve gotten involved in trying to help out the animals here. It can be so hard to love an animal as much as I know you loved your kitty, but know that he’s remembering you with lots of love while he sleeps in the sun near that rainbow bridge!

    Love Heather

    P.S. That shot of him laying on your chest reminds me of my cat so much. That’s where he likes to sleep :)

  177. says

    Two months??? Holy cow! I can’t imagine it. But I suppose that means that Kevin’s music career is doing what he hoped it would do, which is a great thing.

    And Mr. Bean … honey, we’ve been there with one cat and one dog. And we still have one cat to go. The sorrow of losing a pet is so strong … my prayers are with you! Hope you and Kevin celebrated a wonderful homecoming. :)

  178. Gracie says

    Oh Layla, I’m so sorry. I couldn’t help but cry too when I read this. It’s so hard to loose a pet. I’m so glad you rescued him and gave him a wonderful life and at least now he’s not suffering anymore. Glad Kevin’s coming home.

  179. says

    Layla – I’m so sorry. Losing a loved pet is as bad as losing a loved person. They are our friends, they trust us completely and love us always. You gave Mr Bean a wonderful life and you can be proud of that. You have my sympathy.

  180. Carrie says

    I’m so so sorry to hear about Mr. Bean. Pets are just as much family as the humans, aren’t they? (I know my hubby and I feel that way about our two furry family members). Hugs to you! Enjoy being reunited with your sweetheart.

  181. jessica says

    Layla,
    I am so sorry for your loss of Mr. Bean. This post made me tear up because we are a cat loving family. I grew up with rescued cats and now that I’m married, we have our own rescued kitty. They really are family. You did the right thing and were a great mommy to take care of him like that at the end. He is in Heaven now enjoying “meals on wheels” (mice on rolling skates). At least that’s what my mom and I always said when we had to let our kitty go. (clearly those mice are not in their Heaven). Enjoy all the happy memories that Mr. Bean left you. He’s happy and healthy now. :)

    *hugs*

  182. Lisa says

    I’m so sorry to hear about Bean. It reminds me of the loss of my beloved dog about a year ago. You never really get over it.

  183. says

    I hope Kevin had a safe trip home!!!

    Your post about Bean made me go home and hug my pups. My oldest one turns 15 today. Thanks for the reminder to cheerish your furry companions every day.

  184. says

    This post made me cry. I lost my first cat/best friend in 2002 after an awesome 14 year friendship. His name was Bear and I still don’t think I ever got over his loss. I can only imagine what you must feel like after not seeing Kevin for so long. I would go nuts without my Chris-y-poo for that long!

    Peace and happiness to you always.
    xo
    Sofia

  185. Sheila says

    Hi dear Layla – I’m what I think is known as a “lurker” but I read all of your posts and love your blog and your wonderful design skills. I just wanted to say how sorry I am about Mr. Bean…so very hard to lose a family member. Boy have I been in your spot before…so hard to make that call about a life, but not wanting our furry babies to suffer:( My husband also travels quite often for his work and it seems like pet problems seem to occur when he isn’t home! I am also quite nervous when he is gone and I guess I shouldn’t be since he has travelled on and off through our 27 year marriage! I tend to go to bed later than I normally would because I DREAD that moment when I shut the lights and music/tv off and I’m alone in the quiet and the dark. Kind of silly for a 53 year old…hee-hee! I watch NO scary shows during his absences, but I do have a treasure trove of King of Queens, Two and a Half Men, Frasier, Martha Stewart, Martha Bakes, The Barefoot Contessa, anything HGTV or Hallmark channel on my DVR.

    I hope your hearts heal and please enjoy the wonderful memories of the incredible Mr. Bean:)

    Sheila

  186. says

    Oh I’m so sorry to hear the news about Mr. Bean! I went through a similar situation with my kitty Sydney a year & a half ago…so hard to say goodbye…and I still miss her. On a happier note, I’m glad you get to see you Mr. again; that’s a really long time to be apart:)

  187. gisela says

    Hi Layla,
    I was in tears reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss. I know what it’s like to say goodbye to such a loved member of the family. I am however, happy that your hubby is back.

  188. Ofelia says

    That´s so sad. I know what are you talking about. It was so sad to me when my cat, Toti, die five years ago… My cat was very sick, but his got recovered. Then, some weeks later, was poisoned, and weak he was, passed away.

  189. Melinda Ke says

    I got choked up when I read this post…I went through the same thing with my kitty several years ago and it is heart breaking, just thinking about him tears me up! I love having my fur babies but it pains me to know I will have to go through that again some day.

  190. says

    i’m so very sorry to hear about your kitty. it’s so hard to say goodbye to a member of our family. just know that mr. bean’s looking down on you. enjoy your reunion with your man!

  191. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how that feels. I’m glad your hubby is coming home soon though!

    p.s. you haven’t changed a bit in 13 years!

  192. says

    Dear Layla,

    I’m so sorry for the loss of Mr. Bean. I can only imagine how heartbreaking it is. I’ll be praying for your comfort. You gave him such love… Love he never would have experienced if you hadn’t rescued him!

    On another note, glad Kevin will be home with you tonight!

    Sincerely,
    Erin
    Birmingham, AL

  193. says

    I’m so sorry about losing your Bean….losing a family member is so hard! Happy to hear that Kevin is coming home, though! Enjoy his homecoming and your memories!!

  194. Cindy Chapman says

    Layla and Kevin,
    I can barely see for the tears. So sorry for the loss of Mr. Bean. I lost my own baby, 13 year old Tia, a few weeks back. She had congestive heart failure and I finally had to make that hard decision after a bad night of her struggling to breath. The next morning, she refused her medication, which the vet said was her saying it was time. It was still difficult. Even though I know she had a great life, it was so hard to let her go, but she literally just floated away in my arms with the help of my wonderful vet. I hope you had a peaceful experience as well. Your cat angel and my dog angel will see each other in Heaven.

  195. says

    oh no. what a hard month you had. losing a pet is very difficult, i still tear up over my dog who passed away 6 years ago. animals hold a special place in our hearts and are such a comfort, especially when our dear ones are far away. i will always remember the pic of your cat and dog napping/sunning themselves on the bed from when you first posted it awhile back. such precious photos to remember him by. i am very sorry for your loss. hope you find yourself back in your husband’s loving arms at this time. :)

  196. Harbormom says

    we had to say “sleep well, dear friend” to Bitty, twice. Each one lived 17 years and each one carved such a deep groove in our hearts. I was able to be there and hold each as they drifted away to a peaceful, painless place of sunshine and soft places to curl up and sleep. I’m so glad for you that Kevin will be home to hold you as you drift to sleep tonight…thinking of your sweet kitty.

  197. says

    Oh my gosh…I am so sorry! People think us animal lovers are CRAZY, and don’t understand how we can love a pet as much as we love humans, but I think it’s one of the greatest loves a person can experience. At least you spent 13 wonderful years with him…:-(

  198. Debbie says

    I feel so BAD! Kevin gone so-o-o-o long and you lost your kitty, too. :( Too much sadness. Hope things look up when Kevin gets home.

  199. kelly says

    my hubby just got home from being gone 2 weeks, it’s tough when your all alone, i am not afraid but i just get bored and lonely!
    so sorry about your cat, i know how i would feel if i lost my dog! it was the right thing to do if they are suffering but the pain is still there and you look for them everywhere. blessings.

  200. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss Layla and Kevin. I lost my youngest kitty in the beginning of March this year. It was sudden and unexpected and I had no clue how to deal with it. I think she may have had a heart attack or stroke. All I can say is that your pets are the closest thing you have to children, and you treat them and love them as you would children, and it is painful to lose them. Just never forget the happy times you had with Mr. Bean and know that he is waiting for you in heaven. :) Love to you both.

  201. says

    Your post brought tears to my eyes. I lost my own cat only four months ago and I am still not over it. He was only four years old and I loved him with all my hear. Losing a pet can be just as painful as losing a child and my thoughts go out to you.

  202. says

    I’m so sorry about Bean and that Kevin was gone. I lost the kitty of my childhood a few years ago – it’s just plain hard.

  203. says

    Losing a pet is the worst. I can’t even think of what to say that could make you feel better, because I’ve been there and it still hurts to think about it. My two year old cat got very sick almost 3 years ago and he didn’t make it. We also have his littermate, which made it 10x harder to watch him experience loss too. Their 5th birthday is next week and it’s always such a bittersweet day.

    13 years is a long life and I imagine he lived a great one with you :)

  204. Tamara Stewart says

    Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

  205. says

    Oh my heart goes out to you. We have a senile arthritic diabetic cat who is 11 years old and as crazy as she is I would still be so sad if she ever passes away. She has a double name Kitty Lynn very appropriate b/c I picture her as an overweight sorority girl. Horrible I know. Anyways I am so sorry and I will be thinking about you!!

    You are a great mom to take such good care of Mr. Bean

  206. Sherri says

    I cried after reading this post, Mr. Bean had a wonderful life because of you. I’m off to give our 11 year old Bean a hug.

  207. melanie kelly says

    I smiled reading your post bc I am so glad to know I am not the only one who HATES being home alone at night- I do the same thing! lights, happy tv etc!! LOL!! So sorry for your loss of Mr. Bean :( our 4 legged friends have special places in our hearts!! love your blog! :)

  208. says

    Oh, dear. Now you’ve got me all teary-eyed about Mr. Bean. :( I have always had cats and never had to put one down, they’d usually become outdoor cats and somehow run away. LOL. One time when I was in highschool my beloved cat got hit by a car on a farily major rode and I found out right before school. I took the morning off, my dad went and got her and buried her. I always loved seeing the pics of Mr. Bean and my fav is the one of your heads together. :)

  209. says

    Layla…I try to come by here everyday and of all days I finally get to visit I can so relate to this post…First of all I am so sorry for you loss I feel for you…In the past fews days we have been going some of the same stuff with our cat…her name is Spitty Spat…We took her to the vet and found out not only does she have cancer but she now is fighting what the Vet thinks is a kidney infection caused by inflammation…which maybe due to the cancer growths near her kidneys…We are giving her IVs daily and meds…Due to her age she may not be able to hold out long she is 18 years old….but the Dr. did tell us he has seen cats pull through with a good quaility of life still left but we need to get this kidney thing cleared up…she has lost some weight and has been limping around since one leg is being affected by this infection…He told us all we can do is give her the antibiotics,pain meds. laxative and daily IVs and see how it goes…I have been in tears about it…We are hoping for the best and praying for strength in the situation and whatever outcome it will bring…We have been very blessed having her in our lives just as I know Mr. Bean was a blessing to you guys and I know You were a blessing to him…Many hugs…Cookie

  210. says

    So sorry about Mr. Bean.

    If I remember correctly, this is the cat you had that hated noise, new experiences, etc.? Reminds me of my cat Jinxie~ may she rest in peace. I STILL miss her.

    Sorry for your loss. Blessings :-)

  211. says

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I went down that road with our first puppy-dog, she got sick and giving her pills and having her continue to decline. It was so very painful to watch. As I was preparing the car to take her to the vet to have her put down, she died in our bed. My husband, too, was out of town. Such joy gone. Hugs to you and to your husband who comes home to a house forever changed…..

    joan

  212. Shellaine says

    I feel you on both fronts. My husband came home from Afghanistan in March after being gone a year. I’ve also had to say goodbye to a beloved kitten (I always call them kittens, no matter how old). I know how painful that is :-( I’m really sorry.

  213. says

    Layla, So sorry to hear about Bean, such a cutie! My cat Topsy is 17 years old and I can’t imagine life without her, she looks almost exactly like Bean. They do bring us so much joy, I bet your doggy is gonna miss Bean too.
    Sorry you had to go thru that without Kevin. Take care.

    xx
    Sandra

  214. says

    Layla, I am so sorry for your loss. Joe and I got a cat when we were newlyweds, and I was so in love with him I longed to be a “stay-at-home pet owner.” He was such a special part of our family, and even several years after his disappearance I still have dreams occasionally that he comes home again. Saying a special prayer for your comfort. Those furry babies are precious!

  215. Leigh Garza says

    Aww Layla, I’m so sorry! We had to put the last of my childhood cats to sleep a couple summers ago and it was awful. I’d never done it before, but it was her time. Broke my heart!

    On a lighter note, I do the exact same thing when my husband’s out of town – I sleep with lots of lights on and HGTV going. I feel like it keeps me company, and BONUS – no scary movie trailers. A couple of years ago I was staying at my BFF’s apartment that she’d just moved out of, waiting for my apartment to be ready. I fell asleep watching tv and woke up during a trailer for The Exorcism of Emily Rose! OMG – the empty apartment was creepy enough, then you add that trailer that looks all happy go lucky until they do the “this is an actual recording of Emily Rose after she was possessed” and the devil voice comes on! I’m pretty sure I didn’t sleep the rest of the night. Scarred me for life!

    So glad Kevin’s home now! :)

  216. says

    THANK YOU! I feel normal again! That is after reading this “You: But I thought you were afraid of being alone at night?
    Me: Oh yeah, I’m a panicker for sure. I just sorta took a great big breath when he left, and always made sure the TV was always on Disney or HGTV. (a.k.a. my two favorite channels that don’t ever show scary movie trailers.)”

    I thought I was the only one who does all this and who has all the lights on when the hubby is away.
    Thank you!!!! :)

    Mira

  217. says

    A tear came to my eye when reading about Mr. Bean. I have four fuzzy feline friends and don’t know how I will react when we lose one of them. Two of my childhood pets died, but not when I was living in the same household, so I didn’t have the impact of being with them every day and then them not being there. Glad your hubby is home for you to settle in and feel safe again.

  218. Pam says

    I’ve been “stalking” your blog for a while now. I ADORE your talent and wit – but am so saddened by your recent loss. I buried my maltese 12 year old puppy almost 9 years ago – and still remember the fresh, raw pain very well. Time really does heal all wounds – but sometimes we just want time to pass a little faster ;).

  219. Nichi says

    Layla … am so sorry to read about your loss. I too had to say good-bye to my dear friend of 13 years last week … my Dog. I am devastated and so sad. He was such a good friend … the best dog EVER !!! Everyone who met him loved him … kids, big scary men, little old ladies … he won everyone over. I miss him terribly. If only our pets could live longer … we were lucky we had 13 years together but when one is so special it is is not long enough. I hope your pain eases soon.

  220. says

    I am so sorry! I know how hard it is to have to say goodbye to a pet who was more like a child! I got a kitten for my 6th birthday. She was my baby. We grew up together. She came to college with me. Then on my 23rd birthday, I had to hand her over to my parents to take home to put her down because she was also not eating, drastically losing weight and I just knew it was time. That was such a rough day. I had to go student teach that morning and was a total wreck. And for weeks would come home and expect her to come great me. I still have a picture of her on my nightstand, 5 yrs later. Thinking of you and happy Kevin is now home for you!

  221. Meg says

    Awww. So sorry to read of Mr. Bean. I just lost my English Springer Spaniel Molly last Wednesday night and I too am devasted. It was unexpected. Thought she had a flair up with her arthritis. Took her to the Vet who also said she had Stage I kidney failure. Should have at least 5 more months with her. But she only lasted a few more days, she was at home. Our poor babies. We must think of all the joy and love that they gave to us. So sad.
    We bought a cottage on the Lake recently and I have been inspired by your creativeness. Hoped to bring Molly to the cottage soon. Thank God for that place. It’s been keeping my mind of things and keeping me busy. Thanks for your Blog and such great ideas. You are very talented and are help keeping my mind occupied!!! Hope you and Kev are doing well! Looking forward to your next endeavor!!!

  222. Lizzie says

    I’m so sorry to hear about Bean – I’m sure it was so much harder going through it alone. With my husband deploying soon and a cat that’s about to turn 19 and a dog that’s almost 8, I’ve had major talks with both of them telling them that they’d better stay healthy at least until he gets home…

  223. kathy h says

    Sadly, I haven’t been able to keep up with all of your posts. The new, well now 10 month, baby is happily taking all my time.

    But… I wanted to say how sorry I am to hear of the loss of your baby. We had to put our Meow Meow down last September, on our anniversary of all days. He was a rescued cat like yours (someone actually threw him away!!!), and I tried everything to keep him alive. I so wanted to have him die naturally in our home, but he just became too weak. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. So, I completely get how devasted you were and I’m so sorry Kevin wasn’t there with you.

    On a happier? note, I was cracking up reading how you hate to be home alone and you sleep with all the lights on. Girl, THAT’S ME! Everyone thinks I’m nuts, but I just get so scared. Unfortunately, though, I think I”ve passed it on to my 11 year old son.

    Anywhoo… I’m still waiting for you guys to get that TV show… I just see one in your future! (Remember I’m the cuckoo one who thinks she is psychic! :-)

  224. says

    Dearest Layla, my heart goes out to you on your loss of Mr. Bean. We have a 17 yr old guy and I know that day is coming… it’s never easy but it sounds like he was well loved while he was with you. If you’re so inclined, get a copy of Cynthia Rylant’s book, “CAT HEAVEN.” It’s beautifully illustrated and has a sweet message that I hope will comfort you.
    Hugs.
    ginny

  225. says

    Aww, Layla, I’m so sorry about Bean! We had a scare with our little bunny on Wednesday (nerve damage, apparently?) but right now it looks like she’s actually getting better. Still not sure how long we’ll have, so we’re treasuring the snuggles and wiggly bunny nose. Sending hugs your way. It’s so hard to lose a furbaby.

  226. Angela says

    Hi Layla, I’m sorry about your loss of Mr. Bean. I lost my Angel kitty of 16 years last week, quickly and unexpectedly, so I can really empathize. These wonderful furry friends are with us day in and day out with their crazy antics and unconditional love. It’s so hard to say goodbye, even when we know it’s time.

  227. Shawn Obchansky says

    *hugs*
    I understand your journey, having made the same one with my tabby Fluffy, just over two years ago. We were at the vet four times over a month, trying anything to get her to eat, until the ultrasound revealed a mass. We tried surgery, and found cancer that had spread to other organs. I remember bartering with the veterinarian for her life; there had to be something more that could be done. There wasn’t, and I said goodbye.
    You loved him, and loved him well, and that’s the part that lasts.

  228. says

    I am so sorry. We had to say goodbye to 2 cats within 2 months of each other and it was so hard. It’s been over a year and I still think about them every day. They were such great kitties. Especially the boy, Ditto. He really was my best friend kitty.

  229. says

    Hi Layla,

    I have not checked your blog in a few weeks, and I am crying. :( I am so very sorry. We lost our sweet cat Chloe just a bit over a year ago, and I definitely know how painful it is. She passed on her own before I had to make any decisions (which I knew I would; her condition worsened so quickly). And it happened when we were in transition from PA to SC (while staying with friends in NC). I really feel for you. I hope our Chloe welcomed your Mr. Bean into heaven. :)

  230. Shannon says

    Oh, I am so sorry to hear about Mr. Bean! How brave of you to handle this by yourself. I wish there was something to say to take all the sadness away. Take good care of yourself.

  231. Maria C. Guerra says

    So sorry to hear about Mr. Bean! He looked just like our cat Huerfano (means orphan in spanish). We lost him a couple of years ago. We still miss him dearly.

  232. Kimberly Madrid says

    I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Mr. Bean. He was beautiful and I can only imagine how very much you must miss him. Much love and hugs to you.

  233. says

    Your post made me get teary eyed. We had to put our sweet Harry Potter to sleep last year. He was diabetic and had to endure ear pricks multiple times a day to test his blood glucose levels and twice daily shots of insulin as well. He eventually was also diagnosed with leukemia as well and went downhill very quickly. He too became a “shell of a cat” as you put it, and we finally decided he’d had enough of being sick and we put him to sleep as well. We miss him every single day too. On a happier note, I love that you found Mr. Bean in a parking lot. I found Harry Potter at a garage sale in a play pen, hiding underneath the mat on the bottom of it. haha :)

  234. says

    :(
    My dad had to put his best friend down today because of kitty cancer.
    This was coincidence that I was even on your blog today….I haven’t been online in forever and then to see that you had to put Mr Bean to sleep :( on the day my dad did.
    I haven’t called him yet, I know he is really upset. Retired man, lives in the country, Roscoe was his best/only friend besides family…..my dad is the type of guy that would “drop a cat at the farm” when we were kids but after he got a second chance at life with a kidney transplant, all of a sudden ALL LIFE seemed precious to him, to include this old tomcat, named Roscoe.
    We were all dreading this day, we knew it’d be hard for him.
    So, from the bottom of my heart, I’m sorry you had to see your friend go but find peace in knowing there is no more suffering. I keep saying that to myself….I loved Roscoe too. It was hard to tell the kids about grandpa’s kitty too…..they all loved him.
    So sorry :( Soo so sorry.

  235. Julie says

    Hey, I am sorry to hear about your cat. My husband and I adopted 2 kittens from an animal shelter last year and a week after we brought them home the boy(Whizby) passed away very suddenly and it was devastating. 2 months later we found out the little girl(Minnie, my little cuddle buddy) had an incurable disease and we had to watch her decline and then pass away 2 weeks after we found out about her disease. I held both of them for hours as they passed away because there was nothing the vet could do and they were not in pain. It was about the hardest thing I ever had to deal with since I had not been around death very much until then. I still cry thinking about my kitties.

  236. Laurie says

    Layla, I am so sorry about your loss. What a beautiful kitty, I love his colours. It’s a terrible thing for you to have to go through especially without your hubby. Remember the good times, the way he understood when you weren’t having a good day. We had the blessing of 19 years with our little man Marlow and we said goodbye over 4 years ago and as much as it hurts I am glad he was apart of our lives. Takecare Layla.

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