Searching For Purpose
Thanks to all the folks that weighed in on yesterday’s blog post. We’ve decided what we’re going to with that little corner in the sunroom and I can’t wait to surprise you with pictures of it when we’re done!
And speaking of work spaces in the works- Kev’s office is already coming together, little by little, too. We like to mix things up from day to day though, so we’ve been taking turns working on different floors. Sometimes I blog upstairs, and sometimes he plays guitar downstairs.
He plays his acoustic guitar 99.9% of the time, but his friend Josh brought over a little Super Champ amp the other night, and he’s been having a (low volume) blast playing his electric guitar through it for the past couple of days.
It wasn’t that long ago that my mister’s music career went from full-time, to no-time- but I’m sure it feels like forever ago to him, and I know he’s felt an incredible void in his life since he stopped writing, recording, and playing for a living.
The other day he told me that he “feels music in his soul every day of his life“, and I know that’s true because, even though he may not know it, I notice how he gravitates to his guitar, every single chance he gets.
I hear him strumming it and singing at the top of his lungs, every day…most times in the bathroom, where the acoustics are the best in the house.
He’s been doing a lot of praying about auditioning for the worship band at our church over that past several months. He can play and sing in front of thousands of people if he’s asked to, but he’s still very insecure when it comes to believing that that folks might be interested in hearing what he’s saying & playing, if ya know what I mean.
When he first brought up the idea of auditioning for the church band to me, I told him I’d support his decision either way…and I meant it. Of course I’d love for him to be more involved in music again, especially if he’s feeling a Calling- but obviously you can’t push that kind of thing, and I knew he’d eventually figure it out.
And he eventually did.
He’s auditioning next Wednesday, and although I know he’s feeling really nervous about putting himself out there again- I also know that the music he feels in his soul every day is a Gift…and Gifts were meant to be shared.
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Courtney Walsh says:Oct 24, 2012 at 10:25 am
My mister is a musician too, Layla, and he recently said the same thing about wanting to play in the worship band again…I think for him, it’s the best way to engage in personal worship so even though it’s a commitment, I’d support it 100%. I guess I feel the same way with writing…it’s in my bones.
Loving your new house!! It’s gorgeous…can’t wait to see what you do with it! -
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Lesley says:Oct 24, 2012 at 10:44 am
What a sweet and inspiring message. Sometimes we need reminding that the thing we feel in our soul every day IS a gift and we should keep embracing it. Thanks for the reminder.
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Karen says:Oct 24, 2012 at 10:59 am
I and members of my family serve regularly on our church Worship Team. What a wonderful place to use musical gifts…for the benefit of the body and for the Lord’s glory! Sounds like his heart is right, which is one of the most important factors in leading worship.
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kristin says:Oct 24, 2012 at 11:21 am
I hope this song helps your hubby find what he needs
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Carole says:Oct 24, 2012 at 11:48 am
Good luck at the audition Kevin. You’ll do great!
My hubby has played piano since high school, and though we still own a piano, playing has drifted farther and farther into the back ground of every day life. I know he misses it. He’s always humming or singing while walking around the house, and now he’s started to write lyrics as a form of expression. When he does wander to the piano, it makes my heart smile to hear him play. I know he misses the days when he could just sit and play and not worry about all of the other things that need to be done. Sometimes life gets in the way, but we have to make time for those things we truly want to do. Those are the things that lift our spirits and make the other stuff bearable/doable.
Again, good luck.
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Emily @ On the V Side says:Oct 24, 2012 at 11:49 am
I think it’s AWESOME that Kevin is open to sharing his gift with your church – Music is my favorite part of church, it lifts me up, gets me motivated, and helps me prepare to absorb the Message. Good Luck on the audition!
You two both have very special gifts – thanks for sharing them with all of us.
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Gina says:Oct 24, 2012 at 12:37 pm
As I was reading I was thinking Kevin should use his God given talent in church to glorify the Giver and then read on and was so pleased!!!! =D I have found when I am using my God given talents I feel deeply satisfied. Praying for Kevin!! And you…such a supportive wife.
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Traci says:Oct 24, 2012 at 12:43 pm
Layla! I read this post to Jonathan! He is so much like Kevin. Music is in his soul. He got his acoustic guitar in July, and he has already self-taught himself so much.
I would love for him and Kevin to play together soon! Jonathan could learn so much from him.
I’ll be praying for him and his audition.
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Paige says:Oct 24, 2012 at 2:37 pm
My full-time job is to be a worship leader at my church, so, I audition potential musicians weekly. I heard Kevin on youtube and I promise you, he will make the cut (by a long shot). But more importantly, 2 Corinthians 4-5 says, “Such is the confidence that we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God…” Our adequacy and competency comes from Christ. Our responsibility is to walk in obedience. I’m praying that the Lord gives us all (including Kevin!) courage to walk in obedience to His will.
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Shana says:Oct 24, 2012 at 4:36 pm
Good luck to Kevin, no matter which direction he chooses. I totally get the hesitation. Every dance routine I create for my students, every new item I create for my Etsy shop – even though I have many people satisfied with my work – I still ALWAYS have a nagging voice in the back of my head that tells me I’m a fraud – or that I’m not good enough.
The trick is to be willing to shut that nagging voice out – and embrace the possibility of failure. If we fail, it is okay!!!! There are always new opportunities – sometimes God is just waiting to bless us with a better one.
Being afraid of failure holds us back. Only when we embrace all the possibilities are we able to let our creative genius loose – and then oh, the places we’ll go, as Dr. Seuss says. -
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Tommy Green says:Oct 24, 2012 at 7:47 pm
I’ll be praying for him, I hear the worship leader really tough to impress.
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Tracey Hewison says:Oct 24, 2012 at 9:42 pm
Go for it, Kevin, you’ll never regret it!! Who could ever regret facing their fears, no matter the outcome?
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Mitzi Yingling says:Oct 24, 2012 at 10:00 pm
This post brough a little tear to my eye
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Anneke at This, That and Life says:Oct 25, 2012 at 1:15 am
As someone who has led worship and supported worship leaders, whether through vocals, keyboard, or prayer, there is something amazingly unique about being part of a worship team. And God brings people and takes people away in His all-knowing ways and timing.
It’s kind of funny, I actually told my husband last week (yes, can’t believe I’m admitting this) BUT, I said, if I could do ANYthing with these guys (meaning you two), I’d just want to play worship songs together. Seriously!
After transitioning from churches (my first time ever), I am super excited to be on the team this coming Sunday for the first time at our new church home. It’s been one year and I have missed that team aspect SO much…often you become like family. Praying for that peace and confidence in God’s will for Kev.
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Kevin says:Oct 25, 2012 at 9:22 am
I just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone! The words of encouragement mean more than you will ever know. I’m feeling incredibly blessed right now.
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crissy armstrong says:Oct 25, 2012 at 11:15 am
so many people are blessed by those who can sing and lead worship. it’s an incredible gift. so is a home filled w/ music.
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Jen (Balancing Beauty and Bedlam) says:Oct 26, 2012 at 4:19 pm
I sure hope he’s bringing that acoustic to Peru. I am counting the days to have some serious late night worship times with Shaun and Kevin.
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Sherri B. says:Oct 28, 2012 at 10:29 pm
I’ll say a prayer for your Mister.
I am sure he’ll do great! The band will be blessed to have him! No doubt, he’s an answer to THEIR prayers! -
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Cassie {Hi Sugarplum} says:Dec 17, 2012 at 9:21 pm
I’ve always felt like we had similar lives, Layla. My husband went through the same thing..professional musician for 15 yrs of his life, me home alone for most of our early years of marriage. Then the record label folded, and we had small kids, so he opted to not pursue it any longer. (You can only ride around on a bus/van for so long!). Anyway, after a period of depression and reflection, he realized one of the main reasons he loved music so much, was being able to touch people’s lives with a positive message. So he went back to school, and now is a licensed professional counselor. He changes and impacts lives everyday, using his empathy and experience…and some music therapy!
I’m not sure why I felt compelled to tell you all this, but I think so you’d know things will eventually level out, he’ll find his place on the other side of all this, and your marriage will be the better for having him around more! xo
Good Luck Kevin! Everything is going to be alright! You have a wonderful supporter in your wife Layla….Go for it!